Love has consumed me. I had no idea what it would be like. I didn’t even really believe in love until I met this one girl (how cheesy does that sound…). This new thing…this “feeling”…welled up inside me. And it wasn’t like anything I’d ever experienced, or could ever have imagined. It was like another heart was beating next to mine in my chest, constantly flowing, pulsating and enveloping every inch of my mind. All I can think of is her. Ever action, ever simple task throughout the day relates to her. Every chance I get, I just want to be near her, with her, making her laugh. Making her time in this world as full and enjoyable as I possibly can. Putting her happiness above everything else in this world. Above my own, above all my desires. Because my only true desire now is to be next to her, to feel her eyes draw their gaze on mine, and to smell the air that is in her presence. And her being happy is the only thing in the world that I need. The only thing that seems like it still makes sense. Because she is the one who makes me want to do stupid, insane things, which would have made no sense before her, but now are the only things that make sense.

  Yet right now, she is 200 miles away from me. And nothing seems right. Nothing can fill the void that her absence has left in my soul. Its extremely hard to make someone happy, and to be absolutely sure that you are doing the best you can to fulfill your needs of THEM being happy, when they are 200 miles away. Because only that will make me truly happy, and nothing else.  

Summer fucking sucks.